Have you ever been in a place in life where you felt you were in a tug-of-war with the God of the universe?!
Come on … surely I am not the only one who has ever felt this way!
Perhaps after weeks of desperate prayer, you are just sure that you are pulling God your way in prayer … but your circumstances never seem to cooperate with your passionate prayer life.
Then – you try something else. Private prayer hasn’t worked so you will take your case public.
What you do next is go to church. Your worship your heart out and even spend time at the altar. You might feel that at long last you have experienced that infamous break-through and … finally … that little flag on the middle of the massive tug-of-war rope has finally landed on God’s side. Whew! God won!
Except on Monday morning … you sneakily inch it back your way.
All week long you find yourself talking to God until you are completely hoarse trying to convince Him why your way is the best way and why it makes the most sense … but it seems like heaven is not listening.
You feel that heaven is not interested in your opinions … your desires … your pain … your preferences … your goals … your hopes … your dreams.
You dramatically beg God to do it your way … but heaven is quiet.
Did I just describe your life? It’s called … a tug-of-war with God.
Your will vs. His will.
Your plans vs. His plans.
Your hopes vs. His destiny.
Your desires vs. His perfection.
Can I just help you out here? It’s no fun to win when you are in a tug-of-war with God.
No fun at all.
In fact … it rather stinks in the long run of life.
And while you are listening to me … let me give you one more tip and then maybe I’ll be quiet …
You actually shouldn’t be in a tug-of-war with God at all.
O.K. … I’m not going to be quiet yet. Hang with me for just a few more thoughts.
Every believer must decide whether they are going to enter a tug-of-war with God or not.
It’s inevitable … there comes a moment in life when you have to determine if it is worth it or not.
Abraham had to decide … and God won.
David had to decide … and God won.
Samson had to decide … and God won.
Peter had to decide … and God won.
The odds are on God’s side. If I were a betting woman (and I am not) my money would be on God and not on you.
I have been studying the Book of Job for the past month as I prepare for the next book that I am writing.
Everybody knows who Job is but no one wants to study his life. We are afraid that what he had might be contagious or something.
What I am discovering is that the Book of Job is a neglected treasure of the Christian life.
Job was in an appalling, hideous, detestable tug-of-war with God.
Job had been an extremely successful man in business and in agriculture. Not only had he achieved significance in the world’s opinion but even more importantly Job loved God.
The Bible calls him, “righteous” and “blameless”.
Even so – Job had lost his entire family except his difficult wife was still around to torment him.
Everything that he had worked for his entire life was gone in the blink of an eye.
And then – boils appeared all over his body. Crusty, ugly, oozing, painful boils covered Job from head to toe.
The physical pain was excruciating and the emotional pain was unbearable.
But the worst pain of all was the spiritual pain.
Where was God?!
Where was He?!
Did God even care about Job?
And the tug-of-war between Job and God began in earnest.
Job’s friends were absolutely no help at all – they blamed God and they blamed Job. They were the three stooges of the Old Testament.
Job was desperate to hear from God and to figure out what had happened that made his life implode.
For 39 of the 42 chapters of the Book of Job the tug of war goes on … and on … and on.
But finally – the Lord wins the violent tug-of-war (as He always will) and this is what happened next.
(Let me just give you some inside information here: You are getting a very small sliver of my next book that is coming out in April of 2019. The next words are taken from the rough draft. It’s so early in the process that the book doesn’t even have a title yet!)
“I can picture Job sitting there, in the ruins of his life, with his three despicable companions inching away from him. God has spoken and the earth, and all that live therein, are now silent. Perhaps the silence was awkward for a minute or two but then Job lifted up his head and responded to the call of heaven. Job’s beautiful reply is so poignant and lovely that it is almost painful:
“Then Job answered the Lord and said,
‘I know that You can do all things, and that no purpose of Yours can be thwarted.
Who is this that hides counsel without knowledge? Therefore I have declared that which I did not understand, things too wonderful for me, which I did not know.
Hear, now, and I will speak; I will ask You, and You instruct me.
I have heard of You by the hearing of the ear; But now my eye sees You;
Therefore I retract, and I repent in dust and ashes.” – Job 42:1-6
The refining work was completed in the life of Job! He retracted all that he had spoken out of pain, out of selfish questions and out of understandable human emotions. Job came out of the fire as pure gold because God had completed a work so vast in his heart that he was able to retract and repent. Job spoke plainly and powerfully to the One whom he served and when Job said, “I know that You can do all things, and that no purpose of Yours can be thwarted,” what he was actually stating was, “Not my will, Father, but Your will be done in my life.” Job had laid his earthly agenda down and was ready to partner with His Father in heaven for the rest of his remaining days.”
Do you need to retract your case? Do you need to repent with Job?
I certainly do … I need to lay my will down at His nail-scarred feet again today.
Not my will, Father, but Your will be done in my life.
Thanks for listening to my heart this week. As you know by now, my heart is truly not a perfect heart but it is a heart that is filled to overflowing with gratitude for the life I have been given and for the people who walk with me. And, it continues to be a heart that is relentlessly chasing after God and all that He is!